Sometimes I get too caught up in searching for new things to do and complaining about the same-old-same-old that I take for granted the things that make my blood sing. I'm alive and I'm grateful to be alive.
-----------

If there's one thing in this rollercoaster of a year that I got right, it's joining the Femme Fatales Ladies Futsal Workshop, every Monday at 7:30pm, Club 650 Libis. (You want to join? Please do. It's a new religion. More info at the
Futbol Funatics website.) I get intense joy in my ho-hum life from futsal. It's gotten to the point where halfway through the scrimmage I'm starting to think "Wait, are we ending soon?? Dami ko pang mistakes! Ang dami ko pang gusto subukan! Di pa ako nakakagoal! WAIT MUNA!!!" Me and my workshop-mates play on Monday holidays to take advantage of Club 650's cheaper play-all-you-can fee. They also play mid-week at Ateneo - with BOYS and these AWESOME COACHES who run like lightning - and because I am an addict, I've consented to join them (since they moved the games to Wednesday, which gives me time for Thursday yoga). So what if Ateneo is at the end of the world for li'l ol' Southern me?? So what if I have to take an MRT AND THEN the LRT to get there, not to mention hunt for a cab in the late-night streets of Katipunan, which I am not familiar with at all? We must suffer for our joy. Chos.

I'm just glad I'm able to do something that involves running and a ball, since I sucked big time at basketball and volleyball in my youth, which is why I opted for the cheering squad instead. I never really thought of myself as athletic (at all) or even active and was resigned to thinking that part of my brain never caught up with the rest of development. I only started to gain confidence on my physical abilities when I started boxing in 2005, which progressed to badminton and now, futsal. It's too late now to become this super attuned athlete, and I regret that I did not have the opportunities to gain this sort of confidence when I actually had the bones/stamina/youth for potential, but at least I know I'm not destined for couch-potatohood. Iz a big deal for a chubster like me.
-----------
I'm also doing a little better with teaching myself Spanish. I don't have the time anymore for the online lessons and modules, but a tip my friend sent me - subscribing to Dictionary.com's Spanish Word of the Day email - actually helps. I guess daily exposure to the language, even for just five minutes per day, helps the brain remember. In addition to asking you if there is a hotel downtown ("Hace un hotel en el centro?") I can also agree with you ("Estoy acuerdo!") and if you ask me when I'd like to have a beer, I can tell you "antes de la cena" (before dinner) and hurry up please ("Andale!").
-----------
Before I got suckered into focusing into writing as the one core skill that could feed me and my family as well as provide entertainment and an "artistic calling" (snicker), I focused all my energies into drawing. I was part of the Art Club and drew caricatures as part of our Home Economic's "job fair" (where we had to think up a business and set up a fair where people would actually pay us for our services. Hey, me and my Art Club misfit friends made a tidy profit turning grad pics into pencil-and-paper semi-resemblances.) Break times were spent toting sketch books and copying prints (I liked Japanese flat paintings and grotesques) and studying comic books for proper shading. Color was not by specialty - pencil and smudge were.
I pretty much stopped seriously drawing around second year college, when I started to concentrate on writing. I still sketch and doodle, though - always eyes, fish and Muslim-art-like mosaics - but actually conceptualizing one thing to fill a whole page? Nein.

Amazing!But I saw this
amazing slide show in New York Magazine on Tim Burton's visuals and I'm feeling inspired! Some things can't be explicitly written down - or even adequately expressed - and I'm feeling that maybe pencil and ink and paper are in order. Some quiet time, a nice big sketch pad, watercolors - yes. That's on my list.